Here’s one of my mottos: “Never put all of your eggs into one basket.”
But sometimes rules are meant to be broken… and I broke it over and over in high hopes of this email from Gone2Korea:
“I have some good news; the Incheon MOE released the final results and you’ve been accepted. Congratulations, you now have a teaching job lined up with the Incheon Metropolitan Office of Education!” – July 23, 2012 12:06pm
It was truly a gamble! With only three weeks left at my current job position, I stopped applying for more jobs, declined a hagwan position with ChungDahm Academy, and was in the process of declining my number one AmeriCorps health promotions volunteer position. In fear of losing out on yet another dream, I didn’t truly give my life’s path over to destiny until last night during a PC-text conversation with a friend. She was asking about the various decisions that I have to make, but I found myself declaring: “Girl, I’m going to Korea. If the tide turns, then I will turn with it. But I’m fightin’ for SK.”
I was going to fight for the international adventure. Yet, if it wasn’t my destiny, I was going to be okay. Before I laid my head on my pillow last night, I placed my emotions into God’s hands for the evening. I fell asleep thinking, “Everything is going to be alright.” And by God, I’m excited today!
As I anxiously wait to hear from Korean representatives about whether or not I will be offered a position, I’m thinking about the move more and more every day.
It’s what I’ve always wanted… to travel, to learn, to experience. Making an international move will truly engulf all of these desires. The hesitation arises when I realize how far outside of my comfort zone I’ll be stepping. Away from awesome family and friends, away from my beloved ‘apple pie’ culture, and a 13 hour difference in time zones. Yet, to be quite honest, stepping outside of my comfort zone seems to be my new normal.
Public speaking, for example… I’ve spoken in front of various audiences about all sorts of topics, from extremely sensitive to widely accepted. Each time, before I step in front, I still get a knot in the pit of my stomach and I still clasp my hands in hope to stop the nervous shaking. When the spotlight turns to me, I turn to a natural action: breathing. One breath in, one breath out. “I can do this.” I stand and the show goes on.
The list of uncomfortable zones continues… moving to college, skydiving, traveling to El Salvador… each adventure shook a nerve in my system, but I took a breath and the show went on. I don’t regret any of them.
So, I pray, hope and dream that I will be moving to South Korea next month. Working on the international level is my dream. So, do you really think a nervous feeling about a big change will stop me? Ha. Guess what? I’m still breathing.
“Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.” -Neale Donald Walsh